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Tuesday, February 28th, 2006
12:28 pm	rent rent has to be my all time favority musical and movie. if you havent seen it do. but this is one of my favorite songs from the movie. Song: Seasons of Love Lyrics Five hundred twenty-five thousand Six hundred minutes, Five hundred twenty-five thousand Moments so dear. Five hundred twenty-five thousand Six hundred minutes How do you measure, measure a year? In daylights, in sunsets, in midnights In cups of coffee In inches, in miles, in laughter, in strife. In five hundred twenty-five thousand Six hundred minutes How do you measure A year in the life? How about love? How about love? How about love? Measure in love Seasons of love. Seasons of love Five hundred twenty-five thousand Six hundred minutes! Five hundred twenty-five thousand Journeys to plan. Five hundred twenty-five thousand Six hundred minutes How do you measure the life Of a woman or a man? In truths that she learned, Or in times that he cried. In bridges he burned, Or the way that she died. It's time now to sing out, Tho' the story never ends Let's celebrate Remember a year in the life of friends Remember the love! Remember the love! Seasons of love! Oh you got to got to Remember the love! remember the love, You Measure in love know that love is a gift from up above Seasons of love. Share love, give love spread love Measure measure you life in love. (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Monday, February 27th, 2006
5:05 pm	PFC Auer I dropped out of college this semester. my parents dont know that yet. i'm just waiting to give them their money back. i'm no longer a civilian. i am now private first class auer. i joined the national guard. i leave june 1st to boot camp in south carolina then i ship over to texas for job skills training. i wont be back until december. when i get back i'll be private E-2 with LPN and EMTP certification. i'm really excited. i cant wait till i go. i'll be coming back with more than 20,000 in the bank when i come back in december. and when my contract is up i will get another 20,000. sissy is joining too and she is going into the medical portion of it too. so she will also be coming home with 20,000. then when we come home we are thinking about moving far far away. we are thinking about just maybe even staying in texas where we will do job skills training. we are still going to get married right before we leave tho. everything is just comin together. it's freakin awesome. gotta jet. (7 Comments |Comment on this)
Friday, November 18th, 2005
12:04 pm	Harry Potter so went and say harry potter 4 at midnight. i loved it. i think its the best move that has been made so far. this director did a lot fuckin better job. there were so many funny parts. the part with harry in the tube and moaning mertle all up in his shit has great. i thinking this is like porno for ghosts. i was crackin up when i saw that the death eaters looked like KKK memembers. what is it, do the british not like black people or something? and then they made fun of the french. the girls that come from another school walk so fuckin funny. ron looks like he has a teenager in the 70's. they all look way older then the parts they are playing though. which it is going to suck if they change the characters for the last 3 movies. and i loved the previews before the movie started. their is a movie coming out called happy feet and its about penguins. and they are dancin and groovin. and robin williams plays the voice of one and he acts all gay. i love it, even in little kids movies there is still the gay element. after harry potter it was colder then shit outside, so sissy went to get the car. this old lady started yelling at sissy when she was trying to get into my car b/c she was swearing up one side and down the other that it was her car. we ended up both having the same car with white marker on the windows saying for sale and our cars were 3 spaces from each other. this lady was pissed. she was all threatening to call the cops and everything b/c sissy was trying to get into my car. finally a guy came over and was like mama i think your car is the one right over there with the sticker that says grand kids aboard. then she felt all stupid. the guy was like forget to take your alzheimers medicine today granni? so i ended up skipping my first three classes and just came to my last two because i had to. my roomate Drew has this game called civilization 3 and i love it. we all do. me, drew, and sissy like fight for the computer to see who gets to play it that day. i think it's really funny. finals are coming up in like 2 weeks. i'm freekin out about some of my classes. mainly anatomy and phsyiology. and i have 2 tests and a quiz for monday so my weekend will be full of studying. i hate when weekends are like that. i'm glad my next semester is not going to be this hard. i am not looking forward to walking in the freezing cold to get to my classes and car at ICC for the winter. i think it's colder then shit now and it's only going to get worse. thanksgiving is going to be busy. i have to do so many rounds on going to peoples houses. i told my mom and dad that i'm getting marrid in may a few weeks ago. they flat out said that they weren't going to come. they also said that if i want to go to family get togethers that only i am aloud to go and cant bring her. well they have another thing comin if they think i'm comin alone. they are so fuckin stupid. and my mom thinks no one knows at her work that i'm gay, everyone knows, but they dont say shit. i think it's funny cause they all taunt her about it and keep asking her things like "so, sissy and kerri are good friends arent they. like really good friends" just to see what she says. i personally get a kick out of it. my dad wants to have a talk with me "in private". prolly to whoop my ass. does he honestly think that i am going to talk to him alone. anything he has to say to me he can say to sissy b/c she is going to be around a hell of a lot longer than he is. i just wanna shake my parents. they suck so much. they can really just kiss my naturally white ass. i'm so sick of them. end of rant. oh it was so great at work the other day. carol who is like 50 started singing my hump by black eyed peas and my jaw dropped. i couldnt believe she knew the song. so then we were all singin it at work. good times. p.s.- see harry potter! Current Mood: awake Current Music: my hump- black eyed peas (3 Comments |Comment on this)
Wednesday, November 16th, 2005
12:47 pm	good news: so yeah harry potter is definitly almost here. going to see it at midnight. and then prolly skip classes on friday. bad news: my english teacher is a fucking cunt and needs to take her head out of her ass. end of news (5 Comments |Comment on this)
Wednesday, November 2nd, 2005
12:21 pm	scary movies i went and saw Saw II. I loved it. I think it was better than the first. and it still had a twist at the end and everything. so i thought it was pretty freakin awesome. i rented a movie called high tension on halloween. it was the most fucked up movie i have ever seen. it was not so much like scary, but it was fuckin sick. just how all the killings happened and the fact that killings like that do happen. it was just freaky. i took an anatomy and phys test today and got rocked. but everyone did so i dont feel so stupid. i have a B average right now with all my classes so i'm really excited about that. monday was my 9 months with sissy and it was great. i get my surprise today cause it's finally my day off to be able to get it. so yeah i gotta pay attention in class now, so gotta jet. i should be getting internet within 2 weeks at my house so i'm excited. (4 Comments |Comment on this)
Wednesday, October 26th, 2005
12:02 pm	it's been a long time. yeah so i havent had the internet in forever where i live, so i have a free time in one of my classes. let's see i work at wal-mart in washington as a cashier. it's an ok job. it can get boring. i'm gonna try to go get a job at morton metal though cause they start at $10/hour and get paid every week. so i'm thinking hell freakin yeah. i dont live at home. i live in washington with sissy, drew and randy. we all live in a house. it's pretty cool cause we are all makin it on our own. it's a good size house too. 3 bedroom, basement, livin room with fireplace, 2 full bath, 2 car garage, nice size kitchen, and a big yard. it's pretty cool. i'm doing good in all my classes except my fucking english class. the bitch gave me an F and D one two of my papers and they were better than that. My anatomy class is hard as hell, but at least i have fun in the class with the people i sit by. halloween is this monday and it's the best holiday ever. 1)free candy, 2)get to dress up, 3)me and sissy's 9 months, 4)callin off work to spend time with my baby. Me and Sissy are doin so good. She's workin too, so we dont have as much time to spend together, but it's okay. we getting married May 13, 2005. we gonna be married by wiccans and our dresses gonna be medieval. it's gonna be great. it's only like 6 months away. i'm so happy. i have two more pets now. I have a sugar glidder, Sammy, and he is the cutest thing. and keddio, the beta fish. got a new car cause my old one broke on me. i dont have a lot of time to talk to or hang out with people anymore. but i guess its the sacrifice i have to make livin on my own. so im in debt right now, but it's okay. well i know there is more but i my class is over. (5 Comments |Comment on this)
Sunday, July 31st, 2005
7:25 pm	half-year 6 months is today!!!! 6 months went by so fast. but it's so cool that it already has been a half year. my parents came home today. lacey came home today, woo-hoo! i'm not ready for school to start at all. i wish it wasn't going to so fast. randy and brad left to go see his parents yesterday. randy left the apartment trashed before he left which i am not too happy about and he got bitched at already so i feel alot better. well it's almost time for my baby to get off work so i must go. Current Mood: excited Current Music: amazed-lonestar (7 Comments |Comment on this)
Tuesday, July 12th, 2005
5:16 pm	4th of july was sweet. and right before the fire works there were not one but TWO rainbows. it made my day. so here are my plans within a year. getting married 01/31/06, which would be my year with sissy. sissy is going to get pregnant in october of 2006 and have the baby before school would start the following year. not fer sure yet but most likely randy will be the father out of the four guys that we would choose from. i'm excited!! i cant wait. everything is so right and it's what i want. Current Mood: ecstatic (10 Comments |Comment on this)
Saturday, July 2nd, 2005
9:34 am	money is incredibly tight right now. i have about $30 in my name. my wonderful little pet shop job only pays about $44 a week, but hey it's still money. sissy just started her new job, but that pay check wont come in for 2 weeks. gas is fucking expensive out the ass. all my money goes to gas and i can only afford to drive to work pretty much. my 5 months with sissy was yesterday, yahh! well, i have a lot to do today, so i must be off. being all growed up sucks sometimes. (7 Comments |Comment on this)
Friday, June 10th, 2005
10:38 am	so sissy got kicked out/moved out yesterday. my second mom, vet, let her stay with her until randy and sissy find an apartment. too bad my parents are assholes or else she could stay in my house. i know there has been other things going on but i cant remember them. well i'm off to vet's, which kinda sucks cause its 50 mins away, but it's worth it. (Comment on this)
Friday, May 20th, 2005
11:00 am	i like this song One shot to your heart without breaking your skin No one has the power to hurt you like your kin Kept it inside, didn't tell no one else Didn't even wanna admit it to yourself And now your chest burns and your back aches From 15 years of holding the pain And now you only have yourself to blame If you continue to live this way Get it together You wanna heal your body You have to heal your heart Whatsoever you sow you will reap Get it together You can fly fly Dark future ahead of me That's what they say I'd be starving if I ate all the lies they fed Cause I've been redeemed from your anguish and pain A miracle child I'm floating on a cloud Cause the words that come from your mouth You're the first to hear Speak words of beauty and you will be there No matter what anybody says What matters most is what you think of yourself The choice is yours No matter what it is To choose life is to choose to forgive You don't have to try To hurt him and break his pride To shake that weight off And you will be ready to fly One shot to your heart without breaking your skin No one has the power to hurt you like your friends Thought it will never change but this time moved on An ugly duckling grew up to be a swan And now your chest burns and your back aches Because now the years are showing up on your face But you're never be happy And you'll never be whole Until you see the beauty in growing old (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Wednesday, May 18th, 2005
7:17 pm	WOW!! i think the most interesting and exciting thing that has happened to me lately is I GOT ENGAGED!!!! yeah yeah yeah, i know what some of you are thinking...it's too fast. but, it's hard to explain what it feels like and how you know when you find that one person you could not live without. everyone else i've dated i could live without easily, but not her. It's great to have this feeling. Anyone that's at graduation can see my ring. for all who are freaking out, the wedding wont be for years until after college. I cant believe it! I graduate this sunday. it's awesome but also a little sad. most people i know are going to ISU or U of I except like 4 people, who are all joining me at harvard on the hill. It's going to be weird not seeing everyone everyday at school. applied at wal-mart today. hopefully i'll get a tech position at one of the places...i'll be making 8 an hour. i need a job. my savings are depleting after having no job for a month. i just signed up for classes at ICC today. M-W-F 8-8:50...Math 111 9-9:50...Psy 202 10-10:50...Biol 145(Anatomy and Physiology) 11-11:50...Math 115 12-12:50...Engl 110 T 12-1:40...Biol 145(Lab) i like my schedule. I'll have tuesday's and thursdays pretty much free which is nice. I really dont care about having an 8am class b/c that means i didn't have to have malcolm for bio and i would fail with him. i got all the teachers i wanted so i'm happy. i have to retake my reading placement test b/c i need a 87 on it to opt out of having to take reading 106. i'll be pissed if i have to take a stupid ass class like that. i can read well enough to get by, they shouldnt test me on that shit. I don't know where i'm going to go for my nursing school yet. methodist and OSF have 1 1/2-2 year waiting list. I might have to go to ISU or maybe to Murray State. I dunno yet. I'll see how it goes. it's just weird to think that high school is all over. it went by really really fast now that i look back on it. and now i get to start college. it's cool. my grad. party is this friday in lincoln. and i have tons to go to this weekend. it's gonna be crazy. my lap top has a virus. i wont get it back for like a week i think. i'm sure there are other things that have been going on, but my memory is not what it used to be. Current Mood: happy Current Music: graduation- vitamin C (9 Comments |Comment on this)
Sunday, May 1st, 2005
11:15 pm	3 MONTHS!! This weekend was my 3 months with sissy. This whole weekend was actually so great. i didnt have to go home all weekend. i was able to spend the whole time with my gurl. prom was on saturday. it was so much fun. i got so many pictures taken of me. i felt like i was getting senior pictures all over. guys were takin pictures of us when we danced. we had over half the people looking at us and cheering at us. it was so funny. people came up to us and said it was cool how we dont care what others think and we'll show it. everything is just so great. i need to do homework now, since i've been gone all weekend. (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Thursday, April 28th, 2005
9:27 pm	a lot has happened since my last update. looks like i'm staying at my house during college...at least that's how it looks for now. my mom is doing better with accepting my gay situation, but my dad is still a dick. my mom is even going to take me and sissy out to breakfast on sunday. tomorrow is friday which means 2 more weeks of school. my day is gone from now until sunday. my mom is thinking about spending the night with a friend tomorrow night. so that means i have the house to myself...or i can spend the night wherever i want to. then saturday is prom and i'm really excited. i never really wanted to go to prom cause i didn't think it'd be fun if i had to go with a guy. but i'm going with my girl and i can't wait. my parents disapprove but i already got a cover story and i'm not comin home. then next weekend on saturday i'm going to a cubs game. school is almost over and i'm so excited. my projects that i have to do are a pain in the ass though. tomorrow is my last track meet and i am really excited. i just want it to be over with. practice sucks so much especially since it's like 60 degrees outside. wtf is that! but i mean minus my parents, life is great. it's more than i ever thought it could be. well i got stuff to do, and never enough time to do it. peace. (4 Comments |Comment on this)
Thursday, April 7th, 2005
9:43 pm	i thought living at home was getting better, but lately it has been worse. it's like all day i've been yelled at for where i'm going college, for being gay, for waisting their time, for being a disappointment to them with my life, or whatever else they come up with. all day has been crying once my parents got home. it's just like no matter what i do i cant make them happy and then i get yelled at for not making them happy. and now sissy works full time at Khol's so i don't have a place to get away from my home most days. and next wednesday is when i turn 18 and i could move out. and i don't know what i want to do. i dont know if i could support myself if i was on my own. and my dad is so close to getting to the point of being so ashamed that he wants to kick me out. it's not fair. it's not like i waisted my life on drugs and alcohole. i tried hard in school all through high school. i went from all standard classes to honors. i'm 21st in my class. i've had a full time job while going to school for a year. but yet i'm a failure at life now. the only person that takes my pain away is always at work now, so that kinda sucks. i shouldn't be complaining anyway. it's not like i have it hard. so i get yelled, oh well. i haven't been hit yet. i haven't been kicked out yet. others have so many more problems than me. my problems are like heaven to them. so i should just wipe away the tears and be tougher. i've gotta be strong when everyone else is trying to break me. i just wish i could see sissy. Current Mood: sad Current Music: cult 45 (5 Comments |Comment on this)
Friday, March 18th, 2005
6:00 pm	its finally spring break!! only 7 more weeks of school. i'm so excited. i cant wait to graduate. me and sissy are still strong and it'll be 2 months march 31. the whole 31 being the day in confusing b/c not every month has a 31. but it sucks b/c sissy's break is the week after ours. so that was disappointing. but sissy, randy, and me are gonna head up to chicago for a weekend and have some fun. i cant wait. it'll be a blast. i've got like 4 projects to work on over break tho so that kinda sucks. but i'll get through it. well other than that not much is goin on. so i'm gonna go enjoy my break. Current Mood: bouncy Current Music: baby mama- fantasia (Comment on this)
Saturday, March 12th, 2005
2:30 pm	everything is amazing with me and sissy. we had our month not too long ago. i love her so much. we both stopped smoking together and it's a lot harder for her. she has a lot of headaches now cause she doesnt have that dependency anymore. my parents are trying to cope with it all. they want me to stay at home during college but i flat out told them if they arent gonna let me go see her and spend the night with her then i'm out. i told them i'm fine with never bring her home but they cant stop me from being with her. i really really wanna get out on my own anyway. it'd be so much more fun and i'd be able to do what i want. i'm going to kill mr. kelley. thanks to him i always have tons of freaking homework to do. he's such a dick! enough ranting about him. i gotta go. (Comment on this)
Friday, March 4th, 2005
4:49 pm	I Turn To You When I'm lost in the rain, In your eyes I know I'll find the light to light my way. And when I'm scared and losing ground; When my world is going crazy, you can turn it all around. And when I'm down you're there; pushing me to the top. You're always there; giving me all you've got. For a shield from the storm; For a friend; for a love To keep me safe and warm, I turn to you. For the strength to be strong; For the will to carry on; For everything you do; For everything that's true, I turn to you. When I lose my will to win, I just reach for you and I can reach the sky again. I can do anything, 'Cause your love is so amazing; 'cause your love inspires me. And when I need a friend, you're always on my side; Giving me faith that gets me through the night. For a shield from the storm; For a friend; for a love To keep me safe and warm, I turn to you. For the strength to be strong; For the will to carry on; For everything you do; For everything that's true, I turn to you. For the arms to be my shelter through all the rain; For truth that will never change; For someone to lean on; for a heart I can rely on through anything; For that one who I can run to.... I turn to you. For a shield from the storm; For a friend; for a love To keep me safe and warm, I turn to you. For the strength to be strong; For the will to carry on; For everything you do; For everything that's true, I turn to you. For a shield from the storm; For a friend; for a love To keep me safe and warm, I turn to you. For the strength to be strong; For the will to carry on; For everything you do; For everything that's true... For everything you do; For everything that's true, I turn to you... Current Mood: loved (Comment on this)
Tuesday, March 1st, 2005
10:48 pm	today was my one month with sissy. she was so cute. she made me a candle light dinner and bought me flowers. it was just wow! no one has ever done something that romantic for me. it was just a perfect night. Current Mood: loved Current Music: brown eyes-destiny's child (Comment on this)
Sunday, February 27th, 2005
4:55 pm	ANGEL of MINE When I first saw you I already knew There was something inside of you Something I thought that I would never find Angel of mine I look at you, lookin' at me Now I know why they say the best things are free I'm gonna love you girl you are so fine Angel of Mine How you changed my world you'll never know I'm different now, you helped me grow You came into my life sent straight from above When I lost all hope you showed me love I'm checkin' for ya girl you're right on time Angel of Mine Nothing means more to me than what we share No one in this whole world can ever compare Last night the way you moved is still on my mind Angel of Mine What you mean to me you'll never know Deep inside I need to show You came into my life sent straight from above (Sent straight from above) When I lost all hope, you showed me love (Girl you showerd me love) I'm checkin' for ya, girl you're right on time (Right on Time) Angel of Mine (Angel of mine) I never knew I could feel each moment As if it were knew, Every breath that I take, the love that we make I only share it with you (you, you, you,you) When I first saw you I already knew There was something inside of you Something I thought that I would never find Angel of Mine You came into my life sent straight from above (Came into my life, yeah yeah yeah) When I lost all hope you showed me love (Girl You showed me love, uh huh) I'm shakin' for ya, girl you're right on time (But girl your right on time) Angel of Mine (Angel of mine, oh mine) How you changed my world you'll never know I'm different now, you helped me grow I look at you lookin' at me Now I know why they say the best things are free I'm checkin' for ya, girl you're right on time Angel of Mine Current Mood: loved Current Music: monica (Comment on this)